I'm still here

Well, I'm still here.  Thanksgiving weekend was very nice.  Great time w/ the family.  I went for a walk on Saturday with the twins up to the Library.  Spent 30 minutes on the elliptical on Sunday then spent an hour walking through Ikea.  I was happy that I spent some time working out.  My current weight is 253.8 lbs.  This isn't as bad as it could be.

So I was writing that on Sunday, now it is Tuesday and I'm not really where the time went.  I am still trying to walk, but my eating is not as good.  I am binging and exhausted.  I am imbibing a bit more than I usually do, but it does help take a bit of the edge off (read as have 2 fingers of Bailey's a couple of times a week). 

Life is stressful right now.  There is a lot of things happening at work that stress me out.  I am doing well at home, enjoying my time w/ the family.  It was difficult over the long weekend to take time and relax when I had a zillion projects to work on, but Kat snapped the whip and I didn't do much. 

So here I am wondering if I really have much new to say.  Wondering if any of this will work, but accepting that by the sheer act of going through the cycle, that I will continue to be healthier.  So here is to working out, binging, and exhaustion, may I learn and follow my cycle back to the up swing.  May the time between down swings be longer and the time between up swings be shorter.  May I learn something new about myself with each pass through and may I, end the end, become the person that God wants me to be.  Amen