Bad Day

Yesterday was a rough one.  I couldn't fight the call of the vending machine.  I made a deal w/ Kat, if I stop going to the vending machine, she would stop baking cookies and other goodies.  I haven't been to the vending machine in over a year.  Yesterday, I went twice! 

So I started thinking, as a Jew, we observe and obey Mitzvot.  Mitzvot are interpreted by many as good deeds.  Another way to interpret Mitzvot is as a commandment.  We are commanded to observe and obey the Mitzvot.  There are 613 Mitzvot and it is not expected that a person will observe all 613; there are some Mitzvot that we, in our modern world, are unable to meet.  Living a life that embraces the Mitzvot is one that many of us strive for.

So what does this have to do with my food disaster yesterday?  Well, we say that doing a Mitzvah leads to doing another Mitzvah.  Likewise, doing sin leads to doing more sin.  Applying the same concept to food, making bad food choices will lead to more bad food choices and good food choices will lead to more good food choices.

That became evident for me in reading a response from a post by a friend on mine on my last blog.  She stated that she manages and limits her junk food on road trips and has found that when she strays from this, her body feels bad and she doesn't want her body to feel bad so she makes good choices.

Wow!  That is truth!  For me, it has taken a long time to put these two concepts together.  Will this help me make better decisions...I don't know; the lure of sweets and cruchy stuff is hard to battle w/ fruit and veggies.  There are some days I can fight it, but there are many days I can't fight it.  I don't know the answer, but I think I need to look at allowing my good choices to out number my bad choices and I make bad choices every day.  Evenings are my worst time.  I'm tired, munch, and don't really want to have to worry about anything.  I just want to chill.  I need to find a way to allow myself to feel like I'm munching and allowing myself to relax.  I'm not sure what it will look like, but I am looking into finding a way to pre-prepare evening snacks like I do for my lunches each day.

This is a lot of work, but it will be worth it if I can make a habit of it.  I need to think outside the box to find a way to make this work, and I will figure it out.