I have continued to feel descent over the weekend. We were very busy canning pickles and peaches. Lots of standing. My real successes over the weekend were recognizing when I was full and stopping the eating. I loved what we were eating, but was full and consciously told myself to stop eating. It felt good to be able to stop. I felt in control. Control is an issue I feel that many of us who have weight issues (under or over) have. We feel out of control in other aspects of our lives, so we use food as a way of exerting our control.
I am feeling in control right now. My weight has been stable at 252.4 lbs. I was shocked that my blood sugar this morning was 121. I have started taking a Vitamin B complex, Vitamin C, and DHEA. I was able to get out and walk after a week off. I have been sleeping the last few nights even though they have been short, they have been restful.
Is it being productive that has led to the feeling of control? Is it the start of school/fall? I'm not really sure the reason matters. What I am going to do is grasp it with both hands and ride it as far as it will take me. Getting back to walking. Weights tomorrow. Listening to my body. It feels good. I like feeling this way. I feel like I have energy and can actually get things done; things that need doing and things I want to do.
That being said, it is important for me to make sure that those around me know how much I love them and how proud I am of all that they are. There have been several deaths over the last few months, some expected, some anticipated, and some unexpected. Making sure that my loved ones know how I feel and show them how special they are to me, this is a huge motivation for my life.
Motivation is making sure that everyone know I love them. I need to be healthy to make this happen. So here is to surfing the wave!
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