The changes in my body are different this time than in the past. The changes seem to be coming slower, but are also looking different. In the past, when I've lost weight, my abdominal fat appeared "firm"; there was not any sagging skin or skin that looked "deflated" (like it does after having a baby). Well, my clothes are fitting differently, but now I have this flabby, deflated look to my abdomen that I have never had before; and me being me, I am trying to figure out, does that mean I am actually burning fat? Have I been able to put myself into ketosis?
I am not weighing myself more than once a week, so I don't know what my weight is doing. What I do know, my walks are getting easier, less shortness of breath, less hip pain, and walking further each day that I walk. I've been here before, many, many times. What am I doing differently this time that has made my body change how it looses weight and what it looks like. Menopause? I don't know. For the first time, I am concerned that when I do loose all of my weight, that I will have extra skin that may need to be removed. Again, is this aging, me looking for something to worry about, or actually succeeding at my weight loss efforts.
One of my mantras has been, look better naked (stolen from 24 hr fitness). I've always thought this as tongue and cheek, but for the first time, I'm wondering what I will look like when I get to where I feel healthy. I was about to say, I've never worried about my looks, but that is BS. I have and still do. Am I vain, I hope not. Is someone's looks what draws me to them, no. Are looks what is most important in life, no. Yet, I do notice that as I feel stronger and healthier, I begin to preen myself; take the time to take care that my skin, hair, nails, ect are all healthy and look healthy.
I will keep you posted on the changes that I see. This should be intersting ;)
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