Well, someone (me) threw me off of my groove....beware the groooove :) I am now beginning to get my groove back! I walked again today and without as much pain. It seems that my muscle memory is beginning to kick in. I am traveling faster and longer. It was pouring today when I went for my walk, but I still did it. I walked down Interstate from work to the Vocational Rehab office, then back. Took me 42 minutes and besides the lower half of me being soaked, it went very well.
Some of you may be asking why I went down to Vocational Rehab; I have a hearing loss. I am supposed to wear hearing aids in both ears, but I don't. Typically, I can hear women's voices well and since a good portion of my life is women, I just kept going forward. I learned how to lip read to insert what I was missing in a conversation, I've learned how to nod and follow the cues of the person I am talking with so they don't know that I can't hear them. During this time I have continued to turn up the TV louder and louder to where now Kat complains of it and the twins tell me that it keeps them up at night after they have gone to bed. You would think that would be enough to make me get my hearing aids, but no. It took not being able to hear a female patient in a quiet office face to face for me to go, I need hearing aids.
I was also in a training this week and again, women were talking, but I can' t hear them. Kat has been telling me that my hearing seems worse. So we'll see what comes of this as to if they will help me get my hearing aids and if so, what type and where will be the best bang for our buck.
So as I am getting back in the groove of walking, changing my diet and lifestyle, and taking care of me, part of that is taking care of my hearing. This is part of caring for me. It will allow me to interact with the world in a very different way. I have worn hearing aids before and it is a very overwhelming and over stimulating experience. At the same time, the depth to sound always amazes me. There are tones I don't hear, clanks and clunks in the car, the kids consipring, and the whisper of my lover. I hope that this part of my journey turns out as I am hoping. Only time will tell.
In the meantime, I will continue to work towards my goals. I am feeling stronger each day. My goal, though I don't know how realistic it will be, is to be 240 lbs (109 kg) by Kat's and my wedding at the end of August. That is a 20 lb (9 kg) drop in 6 months. Between now in then I will set my daily and weekly goals to help make this happen.
My goal today was to walk at lunch-accomplished
My goal for tomorrow is to stay at or below my 2000 calorie goal (weekends are an eat fest for me)
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