So making the decision to focus on food and diet rather than exercise has put up a road block. It seems that I am comfortable pushing the exercise, but uncomfortable with the control of my food intake. I feel like an ostrich, I want to bury my head in the sand and not deal with it.
I find it easier to start working out. Exercise helps me cope with stress and gives me time to feel normal and physical. I always wanted to be a jock. I am too uncoordinated to be great at sports; I also don't build muscle easily (never have) so I am always round and soft. I would love to be buff. Not weight lifter buff, but at least with muscle definition. I like feeling like I can do what I want to and need to physically. Having to ask for help with things like carrying stuff upstairs really chaps my hide.
Keeping all of this in mind, I will ruminate more about how to bring balance to my life.
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