Rough Weekend

Weekends are difficult for me regardless, but this past weekend seemed rougher than usual.  I have been constantly hungry; I can't seem to not eat.  I have been craving sweets and crunchy snacks.  I am always hungry and can't seem to stop thinking about food.  The good news is that we don't have anything overly damaging in the house.  I spent most of my time munching on veggie chips.  I was able to scrounge up some cookies that Kat had hidden, but only ate 4.  There was one piece of cheesecake left.  Since Kat isn't able to eat it anytime soon due to some medical problems, I ate that.  I also ate apples and caramel.

I am continuing to have issues today as well.  I can't seem to stop eating.  My caloric intake today is struggling.  I am continuing to keep up with my exercise.  My weight is back up to 250 lbs.  I am really having to keep reminding myself that I am strong and can keep this up.  I have caught myself saying things like, just give up, why am I doing this if this is what is going to happen, I can't do this anymore I should just give in.  I counter this with I am strong and I am working on this and becoming more aware.

I am Strong, I am Invincible, I am Me...the good, the bad, and the beautiful!  I did get out for a walk this afternoon at lunch.  Today was a beautiful Autumn day here in Portland.  I am continuing to move and try to keep up with my work outs.  I am feeling more motivated to keep going, just the feeling that I need to eat is an issue.  I try to ignore it, but that makes it worse.  When I acknowledge it, I get hungrier.  This feels like a no win situation;  I will succeed though, I will keep working on my health.  I will keep focused.  I can and will do this!