In the Beginning

I read somewhere that there was a group of women who lost weight because they tweeted when they felt like emotional eating or lost motivation.  I want to see if I can blog with the same intent.  A healthy lifestyle is a process that requires dedication, support, and an understanding of how you got where you are.  Beyond that, you have to feel.  I am very good at staying in my head, not so good about moving through the emotion.  I hope to see my blogs move from the realm of reason and logic, to delve into how my emotions, beliefs, and values have helped create who I am.  Being aware of societal input and spiritual as well, I hope to find my dance steps to health.

Weight: 253.8 lbs.
Height: 5'4"
BMI: 43
Cholesterol: 143
Triglycerides: 143
HDL (good fat): 53
LDL (bad fat): 61
Creatnine: 0.75
ALT (liver) 15
HA1c 6.7

At this point, I have lost 15 lbs since the beginning of the year.  I have also gone from the 1st set of holes on a 42 in. belt to the 3rd set of holes.

The health issues I have are obesity, asthma, diabetes type 2, and depression.

I work fulltime as a nurse case manager for large national health system.  I am a Mom to twin 7 year old daughters who are quite active.  I have a beautiful partner whom I am set to wed in August of 2012. 

My faith of choice is Judaism.  I converted in 2009 and my Hebrew name is Adira. While I would love to be more observant, it seems that life keeps interfering. 

I have never been very good at taking care of myself.  I have spent my life caring for everyone else, putting their needs before mine, and telling myself that I don't deserve to be treated well because I am not lovable.  While I have worked through some of this and am learning that I need to care for me to care for others, there is still the habit and tapes of negative feelings that I have to rewrite.

So here I am a little ways down the track from where I started.  Trying to find my way to health.