Just another day

Update:

Weight: 254.6 lbs
Net Cal: +167 cal
Exercise: walk the dogs 10 min x2,

Here we are, another day in the Pacific Northwest!  I was awakened at 0500 by a clap of thunder.  Yes, you read that right, a loud, clap of thunder woke me up!  I went to check on the twins because we just don't have thunderstorms in our part of Oregon very often.  As I walked out of our room, the girls showed up in their doorway having the same look of panic and fear that is on the faces of the children in The Sound of Music.  I half expected us to break out in song of My Favorite Things. 

I haven't really talked w/ Kat yet, but I am seriously thinking of the Body Bugg like my friend Trish suggested.  I think my success lies in knowing what my expenditure is vs. my intake.  As long as I am putting out more than I take in, I'll be good.  I am using a program to help estimate my in and out, but I would really be interested in seeing what I really do put out.

I am wresting with the cost; wrestling with the knowledge that I go gung ho and have difficulty maintaining the activity.  So would this be a waste of money and worth taking it from the family?  Right now, my answer is no.  Even if I did stick with it, I can't justify the money to put out.  So how do I get a better idea of what my output really is?

While I was walking at lunch I came to the conclusion that I need to stop guesstimating my food and actually weigh it and measure it out so I know how much I am really eating.  My guess, I'm eating a lot more than I think I am.  So my goal tonight is to begin to figure out how much my usual transport of food holds, i.e. ziplock bags, tupperware, bowls, ect.  Poor Kat, she is going to have to put up with me taking everything out and pouring food into it so I know what I am doing.  She puts up with an awful lot from me.

I have actually decided to purchase a kitchen scale to assist with acurate reporting.  I am also looking at pedometers both wrist and pocket/waist band to at least give me a better idea of how many calories I am burning durning the day.  It doesn't look at what my total caloric needs and burn rates are, but its something.

So here I am trying to create down time and space, but need to take the time to really look at this and take the time to measure everything.  It is a hard call, I want to do things that are good for me, but fill up my space time.  I want to plan hiking trips, but here we are with summer half over and I have yet to hit the trail or make it to the beach.  I want to study Torah, but again, it takes time out of my space time.  So my other question is, where is the line between encouraging healthy behaviors without filling up the space?  Again, I don't have an answer.

Successes: walked at lunch, not as tired, decided to weigh my food
Barriers: feeling hungry, feeling aprehensive