Our Amazing Bodies

Update:

Weight 255 lbs.
Net Cal.: -154 cal
Inches: 50 in
Walking: walking dog 10 min x 2, 30 min walk @ lunch


Walking across the parking lot this morning, I became aware (again) of how amazing our bodies are.  I walked out into street and a car turned the corner next to the parking garage.  My eyes see the car, my brain recognizes that it is a car that is moving, then sent a message to my body and muscles to stop my movement.  Then the car stopped and the driver waved me on.  Again, my mind recognized the gesture and sent another message and my body moved forward.  All of this happened in the matter of seconds.

I have always believed in a higher power, but what really solidified my belief was my anatomy and physiology class.  To look at everything our body does from the cellular level to the electric impulses to ability to move, it is amazing that we have so few anomalies.  Then add in the emotional and spiritual beings we are and it is truly amazing!  Our bodies are integrated with our emotions, our abstract selves.  It is a wonder to be had!

Given this truly amazing body, where did I go wrong?  I was listening to K103 this morning and came in at the tail end of a discussion about portion sizes.  I liked the comment by Janine Wolf, use Duct Tape!  As a lesbian, I believe that Duct Tape is the answer to most issues.

Really though, portion sizes is a huge part of it.  I have realized that my portion sizes are creeping up again. 
I am not an endless eating machine anymore, but I am finding that I am over eating and not stopping when I am full.  I also want to graze all day.  I make sure I have 2 pieces of fruit at work plus my lunch. 

My food choices have improved, that is obvious by my lab numbers.  I have been keeping up my walking during my lunch hour.  In fact, today I started walking with a friend of mine from work.  I am compliant with my medications (on occasion I miss my afternoon Wellbutrin).  On the weekends I try to be active, I don't always achieve this, but my intention is there; now to just find time for space and me and activity in our already busy weekends. 

I think that is one reason I stay up so late, I don't feel that I have enough time to do what I like to do.  Kat and I have started taping Jeopardy!.  I really enjoy watching Jeopardy!, but after watching it, I can't seem to get my butt off the couch to complete the chores I need to do.  I try to do the chores before we watch Jeopardy!, but it doesn't always work with dinner (wonderfully prepared by Kat), wrangling the kids, making sure the dogs get walked, and feeling exhausted.

I know that this is a common issue amongst most working Moms.  We are tired and never have enough time for us.  All we can think of is the things that need to get done.  It is sad to be honest.  Yet our bodies keep going; heart beating, lungs breathing, brain thinking, kidneys...well doing what kidneys do.   All while our minds are wrapped up in this thing called life.

There is a saying that your body is your temple.  In some ways I agree with that.  It is something to be taken care of, respected, and loved.  Temples are also the place where you are accepted by your community even when you make mistakes.  With our bodies, we are alone, we make mistakes and it shows on our body.  For some it is that tattoo they regret, or the stretch marks from an unwanted pregnancy, an ATV ride that went wrong, or being obese.

Somewhere, life went wrong and a mistake was made.  The mistake of using food as a coping mechanism, a comfort, a defense, and our bodies do what bodies are supposed to do, store for a famine, create a barrier between us and the outside world, provide a place for predators to bite without damaging the internal organs.  Thus the cycle begins, bad feelings, eat, store, feel bad, eat more, store...

Successes: Walked at lunch
Barriers: Exhaustion secondary to trouble sleeping