Perspective

Update:

Weight: 253.6 lbs
Net Cal: + 96 cal
Waist: 50 in.
Walking: 10 min x2 walking the dogs
            


I'm looking at my waist size and realizing that I am as big around and the twins are tall.  Being 100 lbs. over weight is like carrying around both girls without the benefit of developing muscle to help with the extra weight.  Plus looking at the weight cycle for the last week, it really makes me take a closer look at what I am doing and why I am this big.

I am tired today and really munchy.  If I felt I had a choice, I would lay down on my lunch break rather than walk; but it is one of the few sunny days this summer, so I need to take advantage of it.  I really don't feel like walking.  I eat, I get nauseated, I get nuaseated, I need to eat....uggh.

Also, I haven't been sleeping the last few weeks.  Kat pointed out that I am walking 5 days a week at work and maybe that is the issue.  I went back to my KPWalk site and I have been walking daily for 9 weeks, longer than my sleep issues.  I do know that sleep issues make it harder to loose weight.  There have been recent studies about how sleep affects our weight.  Along with those studies are other studies about how women with children at home tend to weigh more.  This isn't related to being of childbearing age, but due to having to give up time to care for the kids and family, we give up our time.  Plus the family life of extra curricular activites combined with having to eat out to keep up lead to a cycle of being overweight. 

Luckily we don't have that issue.  Both Kat and I believe that it is important for the girls to have activities, but spread out over the year.  We want the kids to learn the benefit of space, of relaxation, of being comfortable with themselves.  I hope and pray that the girls will have their own issues, but that neither will have to deal w/ obesity.  I've been through a lot and am far from my childhood visions of what my life would turn out as. Regardless of the hurddle in front of me, I've been able to scale it and come out a better person on the other end; my weight is the only hurddle I've been unable to conquer. 

Successes: walked, not going to the vending machine to munch
Barriers: tired, headache, feeling run down